Monday, July 5, 2010
Sunday, July 4, 2010
Happy 4th of July
So today I woke up a little after breakfast and decided to go have brunch with Robbie at iHop! It was so good. I got the Breakfast Sampler and Robbie got the Split Decision. He ate everything on his plate, I mean EVERYTHING. Practically licked his plate clean. After we got home we were so full it made us really tired so we took a 30 minute nap. It was nice to sleep a little since I didn't go to bed until 3 this morning.
After our nap we went to his parent's house and we all hung out for a while. Me, his mom Annetta, his sisters Alana and Aleisha went to a fireworks store and bought a ton of fireworks. Then we all went to some guy's house to celebrate the 4th and hang out. I didn't know anyone there so I kinda stayed under Robbie's elbow the entire time. I bet that annoyed him a little but I couldn't help it. I also realized that out of our little group that was hanging out, I was the only person interested in watching the fireworks. Kinda hurt my feelings a bit, But oh well.
Happy Birthday to a friend of mine that I've known since I was 5 years old.
I texted you but never got a response, shows how much you care.
Thank God for Robbie..
Saturday, July 3, 2010
5 Months :)
Today was mine and Robbie's 5 month anniversary!!! He surprised me by showing up at my house and joining me at a family get together. We had a lot of fun but then he had to go to work. But I'll see him tomorrow with his family :)
I went to my uncle's office today to watch some fireworks and I had so much fun :)
I'm very tired, so I'm gonna go to sleep. But I'll have a better post tomorrow.
I went to my uncle's office today to watch some fireworks and I had so much fun :)
I'm very tired, so I'm gonna go to sleep. But I'll have a better post tomorrow.
Friday, July 2, 2010
OCD???
So today I got to spend time with Robbie since I didn't get to see him yesterday. The thing is....when he got here we had to drive to Fort Worth to pick up a guitar. I HATE CARS!!! I'm so OCD over cars. Every time I'm riding somewhere my brain is telling me "You're gonna crash and die!" I hate it :(
Then when we finally get back home his friend calls him and tells him he has to drive back home to help him move a car. What. The. Hell. This is MY time to be spending with MY boyfriend. I'm really getting sick and tired of his friend making him come back to the apartment all this time. It's driving me insane.
At least I have 4th of July with him all day all by myself :)
Then when we finally get back home his friend calls him and tells him he has to drive back home to help him move a car. What. The. Hell. This is MY time to be spending with MY boyfriend. I'm really getting sick and tired of his friend making him come back to the apartment all this time. It's driving me insane.
At least I have 4th of July with him all day all by myself :)
Thursday, July 1, 2010
No Hope For Me
Today was just an all around AWFUL day.
I woke up knowing that I would get to spend the entire day with Robbie and I jumped out of bed and started to get ready. I showered, got dressed in my new shirt I bought the other day, had awesome volume in my hair, and my make up was flawless! I sat around waiting for him to call and tell me that he was on his way. It's 12...it's 1....it's 2...it's 3....4...5. Uhhhh...
So I call him and it turns out he isn't coming to see me today because he doesn't have the money to get gas. Awesome. I spent all morning getting pretty. My make up was wasted. I cried so hard because I was so excited to see him and then my hopes went down the drain. My dad came home and saw me crying and I told him everything that happened. He felt sorry for me so he let me go to dinner with him and Lori. I enjoyed that very much.
I felt better by the time I came home. Then I called Robbie because I felt like hearing his voice. It turns out that his day was horrible because he made me cry. And then we started talking about the camera that I want and need so bad.
You see, I want the new Canon EOS Rebel T2i because it's amazing and I want it to start my photography career. BUT I only have $465 and it's a $800 camera. I have n o way of paying for the other half. But my dad told me today that he was gonna help me pay for it. That's so sweet of my dad, but it's still gonna take a long time for me to get it.
On top of that, I still need a car AND a job. My luck is terrible right now. I can't seem to get the things I need. There seems to be no hope for me. I'm losing my mind. I need to pray.
I woke up knowing that I would get to spend the entire day with Robbie and I jumped out of bed and started to get ready. I showered, got dressed in my new shirt I bought the other day, had awesome volume in my hair, and my make up was flawless! I sat around waiting for him to call and tell me that he was on his way. It's 12...it's 1....it's 2...it's 3....4...5. Uhhhh...
So I call him and it turns out he isn't coming to see me today because he doesn't have the money to get gas. Awesome. I spent all morning getting pretty. My make up was wasted. I cried so hard because I was so excited to see him and then my hopes went down the drain. My dad came home and saw me crying and I told him everything that happened. He felt sorry for me so he let me go to dinner with him and Lori. I enjoyed that very much.
I felt better by the time I came home. Then I called Robbie because I felt like hearing his voice. It turns out that his day was horrible because he made me cry. And then we started talking about the camera that I want and need so bad.
You see, I want the new Canon EOS Rebel T2i because it's amazing and I want it to start my photography career. BUT I only have $465 and it's a $800 camera. I have n o way of paying for the other half. But my dad told me today that he was gonna help me pay for it. That's so sweet of my dad, but it's still gonna take a long time for me to get it.
On top of that, I still need a car AND a job. My luck is terrible right now. I can't seem to get the things I need. There seems to be no hope for me. I'm losing my mind. I need to pray.
A Message from God
I had the weirdest dream the night I stayed with Mahaleigh. I was walking around outside and everything was broken and on fire. The sky was a grayish black, kinda like a big thunderstorm was about to strike, and there were really weird looking people walking around everywhere. A man was walking passed me and I said "Where is everyone and why is everything on fire and broken?"
He looked at me funny and said, "It doesn't matter why, it's just the way it is and it's where you belong."
"Where exactly do I belong?"
"With what you're up to little lady, you belong in Hell."
I woke up burning up and sweat was dripping off my back. I was so scared but I tried to stay calm infront of Mahaleigh so she didn't worry. But I threw the blankets off of me because I felt like I was on fire. I've never had a dream like that before and honestly it scared me. I know that this was a message from God telling me to straighten myself up. 8 months ago I decided to do something that I know was wrong, I knew it would ruin everything I had planned in my life, I knew that it could destroy who I really was.....but I was taken by peer pressure and temptation. For 8 months I couldn't stop even though I knew it was wrong. But, after this message, I know it's time to stop.
I just want to say thank you to God. I'm glad that He came to me in my dreams and warned me of my actions, that He took his hand and placed it on my shoulder telling me that I don't have to do this and I could be who I once was 8 months ago, that I can shut the door on my past and throw away the key and leave the hinges on the door to rust so I can NEVER open it again.
Thank you God. I love you. And I promise that my relationship with you will get better and back to how it used to be. I miss your open arms and I miss how you used to make me feel every Wednesday night with all my friends at my church. I promise you that I'll be the child you created me to be.
Thank you.
He looked at me funny and said, "It doesn't matter why, it's just the way it is and it's where you belong."
"Where exactly do I belong?"
"With what you're up to little lady, you belong in Hell."
I woke up burning up and sweat was dripping off my back. I was so scared but I tried to stay calm infront of Mahaleigh so she didn't worry. But I threw the blankets off of me because I felt like I was on fire. I've never had a dream like that before and honestly it scared me. I know that this was a message from God telling me to straighten myself up. 8 months ago I decided to do something that I know was wrong, I knew it would ruin everything I had planned in my life, I knew that it could destroy who I really was.....but I was taken by peer pressure and temptation. For 8 months I couldn't stop even though I knew it was wrong. But, after this message, I know it's time to stop.
I just want to say thank you to God. I'm glad that He came to me in my dreams and warned me of my actions, that He took his hand and placed it on my shoulder telling me that I don't have to do this and I could be who I once was 8 months ago, that I can shut the door on my past and throw away the key and leave the hinges on the door to rust so I can NEVER open it again.
Thank you God. I love you. And I promise that my relationship with you will get better and back to how it used to be. I miss your open arms and I miss how you used to make me feel every Wednesday night with all my friends at my church. I promise you that I'll be the child you created me to be.
Thank you.
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