No Hope For Me

Today was just an all around AWFUL day.

I woke up knowing that I would get to spend the entire day with Robbie and I jumped out of bed and started to get ready. I showered, got dressed in my new shirt I bought the other day, had awesome volume in my hair, and my make up was flawless! I sat around waiting for him to call and tell me that he was on his way. It's 12...it's 1....it's 2...it's 3....4...5. Uhhhh...
So I call him and it turns out he isn't coming to see me today because he doesn't have the money to get gas. Awesome. I spent all morning getting pretty. My make up was wasted. I cried so hard because I was so excited to see him and then my hopes went down the drain. My dad came home and saw me crying and I told him everything that happened. He felt sorry for me so he let me go to dinner with him and Lori. I enjoyed that very much.

I felt better by the time I came home. Then I called Robbie because I felt like hearing his voice. It turns out that his day was horrible because he made me cry. And then we started talking about the camera that I want and need so bad.

You see, I want the new Canon EOS Rebel T2i because it's amazing and I want it to start my photography career. BUT I only have $465 and it's a $800 camera. I have n o way of paying for the other half. But my dad told me today that he was gonna help me pay for it. That's so sweet of my dad, but it's still gonna take a long time for me to get it.

On top of that, I still need a car AND a job. My luck is terrible right now. I can't seem to get the things I need. There seems to be no hope for me. I'm losing my mind. I need to pray.